hiiehiie .
back fo blogging .
nearly forgot to blog >.<
today just pass like this .
no special happenings .
rottrottrott >.<
just nao had a talk wiv mommie .
i think i've to look for a job mad soon .
she's real mad wiv me >.<
sometimes im just wondering .
why is my life so different from my bro ?
to really say , i at least finished my PSLE only nearly got my O/N levels .
he ? not even a gd PSLE results .
but th treatment my mom is giving him and me is totally different .
yes , ue noe that i feel that ue are biased against him as compared to me .
but why aren't ue doing anything ?
bring him prawning jiu spend over 100bucks just one day .
but me ? 1 week 7days , each day 10 bucks and ue are complaining alrdy .
yes , ciggs ue spon me .
yah , food ue spon me .
yeah , im jobless nao .
worked for almost 4yrs ever since u started working .
but since when you let me have th money by myself ?
i noe , i spend them fast .
but , ue control them , i wan buy wad oso difficult .
take a look at my drawer .
to really count , how many clothes cn i really wear out ?
im 18 ! im still a teen .
sometimes friends ask me out but i will turn down .
why ? i feel INFERIOR !
they ask me , why ue working still no money buy clothes ?
how to ans them >
yes , they don't understand me well .
but ue wan face i oso wan !
i dunnid any luxury life .
nvm , even a simple thing - TRUST .
i dun even get frm ue .
how long has it been ever since i lied to you .
i dun even rmb !
bcors it's been a long time .
it's just that ue dun believe !
i nvr look for job ?
ue ask my stead thn !
sometimes , thinking my mother won't even trust me makes me sad .
or another word , disappointed .
why i dowan confide ue ?
ue wanna noe ?
everytime tok to ue .
ue either scold me , nag me , gan me .
have ue ever try to put urself in my shoes and think why i like that think ?
ever ?!
forget it lah .
tong ren bu tong ming .
cnt blame anyone else only me .
this is my life .
take lead in my life ?
as if i cn ... ... ...
