Current music : I'm gonna miss you
Current mood : depressed ?
Shall blog now since I'm on my way home alone.
Today seriously suay max!
Forgot to bring my ezlink card therefore cnt train home. Gna bear with th long bus trip. Hopefully I don't get "bus-sick".
Seriously, I don't know where I stand at work.
I somehow felt like left out. Idk why.
But I think I shall just try to get used to it and bear for another 1year 4months and I'm outta this shit place.
I can't find my smile, my true laughter, my true self or even my own world there.
Everything seems to be so fuckedup to me.
Having to adapt to each and everyone's temper, attitude & maybe words that carries special meaning.
You may say I'm sensitive, but that's how I feel.
I won't say I'm perfect. & I know I'm not.
But at least I try to blend in. Through all efforts I've tried, I confessed, I failed.
I can't seems to find back the happiness I used to have while working like th past.
Yes, I miss my past. I miss those times where my ex-colleagues and me were having so much fun time bonding together.
Now? Each and everyone only cares for their own feelings?
You may have to bear having to listen to stuffs you may not like to hear.
Sometimes, I really wonder. Am
I really not suitable for this line?
Or is it because I really don't have th experience thats why having difficulty in juggling both positions , Therapist cum consultant.
Who don't want money? Who don't want sales?
But things around me just make me lose that mood to do what I initially planned to do.
Anybody teach me what to do? How to do? I'm seriously drained.
I can't help myself but to dragged myself to work everyday.
I cant find that motivation, that adrenaline, that drive that make me go work happily.
I used to so look forward to work. But now, I really wish I can just rot.
Here I am, at another point of life, wishing I can just leave the world && stop thinking...
