Just less then 24 hours after I posted my last entry, I've got like 10 or more people discouraging me for continuing my unhealthy method of slimming 😔
I have no idea where they got my email, formspring & my contact. I don't even know a few of them😱
I shall explain myself here. Whether you think it's right or not, please kindly put yourself in my shoes. Thankyou
In my last entry, I know and I've also stated that this method of slimming I'm undergoing now is unhealthy. So you asked me " Since you know it's unhealthy why still go for it? ". This shall be my answer to the curious you.
Imagine yourself in my shoes. I was weighing 55kg 6 years ago. The meals I ate every single day are all home cooked by my super health conscious mum except for my meal when i'm schooling usually a bowl of bee hoon soup. KFC/Mac once a fortnight when I'm out with friends. I exercise regularly by playing netball twice a week for 2 hours (I was in a netball team with my nearby community centre). Normal exercising for another 1 hour which is during PE lessons. At this rate, my weight shouldn't be increasing, either maintain or decrease. But my weight ACTUALLY keep on increasing!
2 years later, weighing 60kg, still same meals but still at an active state. Slowly when my mum isn't by your side always (my close friends will somehow know why) hence unable to prepare meals and on top of that, I'm working long hours with only one off day per week. Going for a swim once a week which is on my off day. But at this time when I'm on my own, I can only eat outside everyday, hence weight went up twice as fast.
At a point of nearing 70kg, I kick start off wanting to slim down (2 yrs ago). Preparing meals myself with healthy recipes you can find from the Internet, 1hr plus at gym in the morning before my long day of work for a few months, weight dropped for 1-2 kg after the 1st 2 weeks and went stagnant after that.
Changed to Herbalife when I see successful story right before my eyes. A month of supply cost me around $200-300/month when I'm drawing a salary of $700/mth. Tried for 2 months and stopped because I simply cannot survive with the balance off $400 with bills and responsibilities hence landed myself into a few bad debts. So I got to stop.
Started with my first slimming pill, Reduze. A slightly cheaper means for me. But same thing, stopped because $500+ is still not enough to settle my debts and bills and responsibility.
Changed to just eating home cooked food at my boyfriend's house for dinner at times, exercising when I really got the time, weight still keep on increasing.
Changed job with slightly lesser working hours on weekends. Went for a swim twice weekly. Eating dumpling soup / just meat and vegetables without rice most of the time. What disappoints me still is the ever increasing weight.
Right at the point of 82 kg, I finally resorted to Duromine. Hesitated for months while keep doing research on this pill, being fully aware of what this medicine is and the side effects of it, I went to see a doctor for it, told the doctor what you read earlier on, she then prescribed it to me. That's how I started with this pill.
This appetite suppressant not only stops all my cravings, it never gave me ant hunger pangs yet. No stomach growling for food, etc. thus I won't say this is starvation. For those who say me stupid because I go for this, to what extend you are cleverer then me? I'm going be a little nasty here but don't blame me because you fucking don't understand what I'm going through exactly. You never went through those humiliation and hurtful remarks. You never see that drastic change when you compare your photographs from 6yrs ago and now. You never undergo before the times when you just wna buy those supplements for weight loss and ended up with penniless which u can't even afford a bus ride. You never been through the times when you are alrdy at a "L" size shirt/pants and the X keep wanting to squeeze in front of the L! 😡😡😡
With all that I said that you never been through, what position are you in to say I'm stupid?! I'm getting so worked up because IRL, I'm not stupid and I hate ppl calling me stupid. If I'm stupid I won't be able to speak fluently for my languages. If I'm stupid I won't be able to survive when I'm on my own with nobody paying my bills, etc. if I'm stupid I won't even pass my Diploma cert in Aesthetician.
So please fucking put yourself in other people's shoes and think THRICE before you say/do anything.
Impulsiveness won't bring you any where higher and further.
Enough of my rants. Shall stop here. Once again, I know this is an unhealthy way of slimming down but also the only way I start seeing my weight drops. With self consciousness, I'll definitely stop when it's time and control my intake after that. Once I slimmed down, I swear I will never return to this weight ever again unless I am pregnant.
Lastly, I LOVE RUNNING MAN ❕❕❕💗💗💗
